Well. I am just letting all know that after thinking long and hard, I am finally leaving DA for good (even though I said that like..twice now)
I'm not sad, angry, or anything. It's kinda just...well, with the latest drama, I have decided it's just not worth it. I am a good person, or so I think I am. And well...-shrug-
DA was a nice neighborhood, ya know. Was. You had the nosy neighbors, the strange neighbors, the secrative neighbors, the perverted neighbors, the old folks down the street, the loving couple expecting their first child and the new neighbors. Not to mention that ONE minority couple and homo couple. -laughs softly-
I suppose you could say I am moving on. The thing is...I was accused of stealing art. When I looked at the page I was stunned to see the picture WAS like mine. And I felt dumbfounded. I didn't know what to say or do or how to react because I had never seen the picture before. I thought maybe it was one of those strange miricle things like in the movies. But I dunno. When I went to defend myself while trying not to be offensive or rude, I got attacked viciously. It made me think 'wow...what did I ever do to you'.
It was an honest mistake. I swear.
It made me think hard last night and I questioned myself a lot. I was wondering what was happening to my mind. What is wrong with me? Am I losing it that much. Something similar happened monday.
-Sighs- I was fired from the best housekepping job I ever had.
He said that I didn't make the bed up in a room. But I was sure I did. I mean...he even took the dirty sheets from me.
But afterwards, I wondered. Did I really make the bed? I had the clean linen in my hands...but what happened after? I was so SURE I made that bed...but I had doubts...what if I put the clean linen in the dirty basket by mistake?
People make mistakes...
But he was just as vicious as the people here...
He fired me....he...
Why are people so mean and Unforgiving?
Sorry. I didn't mean to go off track. It's just...man...
But the more I thought about the picture, because it really bothered me. I wondered...HAD I indeed actually seen that picture somewhere and...I don't know...forgotten and just drew...? My memory isn't that good, I know...so I couldn't have gotten it so perfect!
Then what?!
-holds her head-
Anyway...I do apologize to whoever drew the picture. I mean...what else can I do?
Now people think I am an art thief...all the hard work...and stuff...I even got blisters on my thumbs before from drawing so hard. I wondered how could I possibly trace something?
I never did that before...
My life is taking a serious turn for the worse....
Income, relationships, jobs...etc...life in general. The good thing is I still have that flicker of hope keeping me going.
I'm not running away from my problems, mind you...I just decided that I need to get rid of my stress. DA is most definatly one of them. Ever since i've been here, it's been one thing after another. Whether with Blaze, Demise, and Dark. Or with Strangers passing by being unessessarily cruel.
By the way, if I ever did use someone picture to inspire me, I would thank the artist who drew it IF I knew who drew it. At least I would make mention that it wasn't all me. Also...there was a comment I wanted to clear up about how my art drastically changes. Well, back when I was small, my pictures sucked. And with practice it got better. Thats how it works. You practice and get better. However I was a lot better at coloring back then than I am now. -laughs softly- I'm working on that. I also shade better when I am in the mood to. I experiment a lot with my pictures. From faces to posed. I alsways want a different look. If it's a crime to do that, then I am sorry.
lol
The black part of me is like 'man, fuck ya'll'
the asian is all 'OH GOD! -bow bow- please forgive me! I apologize!!!'
and the white part is more 'whatever...'
heh
By the way, I know what Otaku means. I am one to the fullest and proud of it. and I am also a big hentai. So get over it.
-Cough- not trying to be bitter. The day is wearing on me.
So anyway. In spite of all the mean things, I have a lot of fond memories. But it's time to move along to better things, like the website i've been trying to work on since like forever. Those of you who want to stay in touch, note me. We can still be friends. But as for me...
It's time I said Sayonara...and move on.